Worth: What is Your Self Worth Based Off Of??

Let's Talk About It!!!
This will be very brief. I was soo down today but last night I was on the dance floor at BB Kings!!! What could have possibly happen within 24 freaken hrs??? Well now when my mood changes I take time to reflect, I ask myself questions. Why do I feel this way? Where is this coming from? How can I process these emotions into a message? I stopped and listened. It came to me. Every limitation given to me, I took it in and I stripped myself of my self worth...like taking stripes from a general when a rule was violated. Some situations I had no control over...but because of the end result, I based my self worth off of it. Hey I removed my stripes , it seems like, because I did not make the perfect decision. We have to stop these lies...challenge them!!! Your self worth is not based on how perfect you are or how many times you got it right without mistakes. Growth does come out of those situations we sometimes wish we could void. 

MY What Now!!!

God is sooo quick!!! So I shared an open journal in the previous blog...from there you will understand why this video of Iyanla Vanzant is so on time. All I can say is...Spiritual Code of Conduct!!!! I had no idea she spoke at the Essence Festival this year. I did not go but I received this message right on time...I am happy to share this with you. Watch video and enjoy!!!!

My Tuesday Journal for the Eyes to See...

Everyone has one of those slow silent days...

A slow silent day is a day your internal storm comes to the surface. It is a day you do not feel like talking to anyone. You don't want to share your body, you don't want to be touched. In fact you rather be true to your feelings. You rather feel what you are feeling at the moment. Yes...It is heavy. It can be dark but in this darkness there is a message. That message is...clearly what you are doing now is not working.  On this day everybody may want to take your mood personal. On this day in particular...you don't give a damn about anybody's feelings. 

When you get to this point, you have received directions that you did not follow along time ago. 

You have missed some opportunities you know could have changed your life. Fear and rationalizing...smh, when you have been right all along. At this point, this heaviness, this FEELING is familiar. You still feel the call on your life, like me, you may be a little angry because once again your back at this point...this feeling. Well, I will tell you what I am going to do.  The first step is to acknowledge that true feeling in your heart. 2nd,  then I can honestly ask my heart WHAT NOW?? 

 This time I will not rationalize...just take heed to the wisdom that flows within me.  

Weather Today: Cloudy, temps was in the mid 80's. The wind was nice.

Food: (Breakfast) Coffee and protein shake, (Lunch) Veggie medley with eggs and avocado toast, (Dinner) Peanut butter and chocolate protein smoothie (drinks) Lots of water, 2 cups of coffee, and 2 glasses of wine (still on my first glass of wine)

Workout: Cardio, abs, back, and legs