How offended do we get when some tell us to shut up!!! Well...truth be told sometimes you have to tell yourself to just shhhhhhh!!! Hush now!!!
Okay we have those days when certain experiences reminds us of a mistake or an outcome that was not in our favor. Certain experiences acts as a cue for you to pull out your set back card...when you are in the midst of trying to evolve and do better. How many times have you decided I am going to be positive and let nothing stop me. I am going to love myself no matter what it takes....I will not be negative when it comes to myself. Well all it takes is an experience we can not control. An experience that takes you to a remembrance, a negative place. An experience that acts as a little reminder...I am here because you f*cked up royally!!! Does that song sound familiar? It may be a little harsh, but that is the reality. Why is it...you find yourself in the seat where you have to be the motivator sometimes...but that case what is good for the geese is not good for you the goose. We have to learn and we have to be patient with ourselves. Be patient, and understand yourself a little more each day. Okay shall we dig deeper? I think so too.How do you handle a past that is hunting you in your present moment?
First of all you are stressing your self out!!! Prolong stress along has a whole list of ailments to add to your situation. YOu have to learn how to quiet your mind. You have to tell yourself to hush!!! Seriously!!! I got tired of complaining about the same thing all the time. Another unsuccessful year and all I got to show for it is misery and the same damn song!!! My hopelessness, sadness, depression, anxiety, and stressing did not change sh*t!!! I was like what is the damn purpose for me even waking up if I am going to be a willing participant in doing this to myself!!! I got into a community that was really heavy on meditating. Hell I just wanted to be fixed!!! I remember sharing with the teacher, that I felt like I was missing something, that there was a void in my life. After all the bs that went down, I was left to feeling numb. He simply said...stop telling yourself you have a void. Tell yourself you have everything you need. TELL yourself I AM WHOLE!!! Well...I use to say why would I tell my self sh*t I do not believe. Well one day I quiet my mind and shut down my negative thoughts and asked myself why...why not be happy? Why do I have to believe the damn worst...why? Why? I said I got a right! I have a God given right to chose to be okay. I can chose to okay and at peace with my own story! There is know brain surgery or life surgery to be performed. If I am going to do better, If I am going to heal, damn it!!! It is going to happen through this mind...this body of mind will be the vehicle. It is going to start with me!!!! I accept myself!!! I accept the part I play when I made mistakes. I accept the part I play as a student who has learned her damn lesson. I accept the part I play in loving every damn inch of me as I do this thing we call LIFE!!!! It is a NEW DAWN A NEW DAY...thanks Nina Simone...cause I DO FEEL DAMN GOOD cuz I say so and I feel so...so BE IT!!!Meditation for the anxiety and depression...
I inhale through the nose...hold for four count and exhale air through the mouth. I do it four times or more. I do it until I feel totally relaxed. My thoughts...my mind quiets down and then the work begins. I began to speak things over myself. By now I am very familiar with the bs i fed myself. I have named that so called the truth the very lie that it now is. I wanted to feel sad so the lie a fed myself made since. It made since to accept a lie as a truth then. But NOW...it will not do. Now is the time to speak your new improved and evolved thoughts over yourself. It will work...if you know in your heart you plan to stay alive. You plan to be better when it is all said and done. You do not need to know when it is going to get better...just KNOW...know that you are better.
Meditation is simply breathing through the process....
Sis...that is the only proof you have! Your breath!!! I don't care how ugly it gets, how hard it get...the FACT IS the breath in your body means you have the life force with you. You must continue to breath in order to exist. Breathing through it is something you will do. Meditation is you just setting your intentions on a goal. You are focusing your mind on a goal. Your breath is the evidence of the life in you...supporting all that you are able to do on this earth as long as there is life in your body. Your mindset is there. It can be positive or negative. Not so fixed like the breath in your body...without it...there is nothing...no life. Your mindset is there..your brain is wired up to support your mindset. It is our fault if we do not use the part of our brain that supports creating good feelings, and healthy good thoughts. Inhale and exhale just to support a weak system controlled by a negative mindset...why do that. Do that everyday for what? Why feed your body that? Why contribute that to the environment around you? Inhale and exhale...yes and speak over yourself the only things you will accept and expect from yourself. Be determined to not use another ounce of your breath...your life force to support a self defeating mindset. Why? No matter how tough life experiences are...for now, all you need to know is you will win and have a better understanding when it is all said and done. Quiet your mind, shut down the victim and raise up that warrior in you. Hell to the yesss....do the work be the women you already are. Greatness my dear. I am human. I black. I am beautiful inside and outside. I am courageous. I am here. I am bringing others up with me. BOOM!!!!
